Past Due Update

It's been 2 1/2 months since I've written. And what a wild ride it's been. Let me first start by saying that I am single. I've had people read my profile on Yahoo, showing that I'm single, but question that because of my entries on here. I am indeed single, and it is indeed my fault. To Chris, I apologize for the decisions I made over the past couple months, and hope that you hold no animosity toward me for those. I also understand that because of my decisions, I basically chose to be single.

Let's discuss some of those decisions I've made. I got involved in a mess they call crystal meth. I used it, and realized very quickly what it can do. While I didn't hit rock bottom, I did sink very fast. While I am not tooting my own horn, I did have the foresight to see what it was doing to my life, and gave it up. The next step came in being nice to those I had met while doing it. I found out quickly that doesn't work either. So, from the middle of January until the beginning of April, that encompasses my time with crystal meth. It is over. I don't want anything to do with it or anyone that has anything to do with it. If you read this, and are interested in any more information, I would be happy to share my experiences.

That leads me to a discussion of who my friends really are. As you might know, there are many different "levels" of friendship. There are those who are there thru thick and thin. Bryan and Greg would top that list. There are those who will support you whatever your decision is. If you choose not to use meth, cool. If you do, they are right there beside you. Thomas would fit there. There are those who would encourage you to use, and if you don't they are nowhere to be found. That list remains nameless to the masses.

Bryan and Greg...This is my public apology to you. You have been there and I haven't realized it. You wait quietly in the wings until I am ready for you. You are the definition of a true friend.

With all that being said, I don't believe it's too late to turn this Titanic around. I am looking forward to getting back on track and re-prioritizing my life. My house needs to be cleaned. Those of you who are closest to me know I've been lamenting about this for some time. The time has come. I will be getting my finances in order, taxes done, and eBay account up and running again. It's funny when someone bares their innermost thoughts, that an eBay account is one of them.

I'd love to have someone to share my life with. When I think about that, I think how much more stable things would be if I had it. In reality, maybe that's not what I need right now. I wouldn't turn it down if a relationship came up and bit me on the butt, but I don't have the energy to "look" for it. In fact, I think I'll save for my next entry just exactly what I am looking for. Until then, please be careful and be safe.